During my one week hiatus from work last week, as i was strolling down the streets, suddenly i recalled the daes where i had my nfirst oversea trip with my pal and the fun and laughter that I had whilst schooling.. Although certain events happen which makes me feel sad/unhappy, it is still part of my growing up process.. these are called my memories, which has layered my life and make it such an eventful/meaningful one..
Im not trying to be an emo kid now but probably i ahve grown old and now things that doesnt appeal to me in the past such as jazz music/oldie songs now actualli appeal to me.. here's a song which i realy enjoyed listening to as it realli brightends my dae when i heard it todae...
Enjoy it peps and have a great dae!!!!
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Lunch time
Lunch this week has been relatively sad as i have been eating in at the canteen at the client's place... barely took 30min to complete my lunch and it will be another 5 hr before i can knock off.. Thus, decided to have a short post during the remaining lunch time..
Today, one of my colleagues randomli mentioned that march is coming to an end.. To be honest, 3 months of peak have passed and it is relatively amazing hw time flies when u are busy.. But to be honest, this peak has been bad for me not in terms of work but in terms of the people that i work with.. the first 2 jobs ( Ma******* and Sw*****) was great as the team members were fun and willing to coach.. totalli enjoyed my stay there despit mi havin to burn up mi weekends.. But i was not hat unlucky in subsequent jobs and at times, i really questioned myself if this is the route that i wan to be in.. At times, i realli felt like throwing in the towel and resign, but i guess i decided to press on cos of mi desire to eventually end up teaching as well as the friends that i have made in the firm thus far.. Friends are indeed important and vital in order for you to press on and stay.. But ppl have started to leave and inevitably, it is sad and the pulling force to stay on is becuming thinner and thinner by day..
On a side note, after 3 days in dilemna, I have finally straightened my thoughts on that unhappy incident.. Maybe people are just pure jealous that i could end on time while they hav to burn oil.. speaking with friends who know me well have assured me that this incident has definitely got nothing to do with my work attitude or watsoever.. As such, J-san will evolve and become more focused with what he wants and not what people wants him to be like...
So happy that it is now wednesday and it is just one more day of work before i go off for my long weekend.. It will be filled with quality personal time and activities such as dinner on thursday with zr and hopefulli mj sessions on fridae.. Sat and sundays i hope will be available for me to do my shopping once again to recharge myself and make mi forget those unhappi incidents at work..
Its 1247pm and its time for me to get back to work le..
Today, one of my colleagues randomli mentioned that march is coming to an end.. To be honest, 3 months of peak have passed and it is relatively amazing hw time flies when u are busy.. But to be honest, this peak has been bad for me not in terms of work but in terms of the people that i work with.. the first 2 jobs ( Ma******* and Sw*****) was great as the team members were fun and willing to coach.. totalli enjoyed my stay there despit mi havin to burn up mi weekends.. But i was not hat unlucky in subsequent jobs and at times, i really questioned myself if this is the route that i wan to be in.. At times, i realli felt like throwing in the towel and resign, but i guess i decided to press on cos of mi desire to eventually end up teaching as well as the friends that i have made in the firm thus far.. Friends are indeed important and vital in order for you to press on and stay.. But ppl have started to leave and inevitably, it is sad and the pulling force to stay on is becuming thinner and thinner by day..
On a side note, after 3 days in dilemna, I have finally straightened my thoughts on that unhappy incident.. Maybe people are just pure jealous that i could end on time while they hav to burn oil.. speaking with friends who know me well have assured me that this incident has definitely got nothing to do with my work attitude or watsoever.. As such, J-san will evolve and become more focused with what he wants and not what people wants him to be like...
So happy that it is now wednesday and it is just one more day of work before i go off for my long weekend.. It will be filled with quality personal time and activities such as dinner on thursday with zr and hopefulli mj sessions on fridae.. Sat and sundays i hope will be available for me to do my shopping once again to recharge myself and make mi forget those unhappi incidents at work..
Its 1247pm and its time for me to get back to work le..
Monday, March 29, 2010
A brand new work week
Ring!!!!!! 730 am and its time for em to drag out of bed to start a brand new work week on a new job... Was feeling damn excited to start work after a relaxing week holidaying and indulging in retail therapy.. went for breakfast with my run mates and i guess being around these few people is totally relaxing and enjoyable as there was no much need to be pretentious and fake, sumthing which i hate..
After which, i proceeded happily to my work and went for a kick off meeting.. But everything was not meant to be as a bombshell hit me.... I was stabbed in the back by the senior of my previous job as he has complained to the manager that i have started late and ended early.. To be honest, i do start late but i alwaes ensure that i work in the necessary work hours and even extra hours ( people who knows mi well enuff know of mi work life balance policy).. Howver, the fact that i was stabbed means that nice guys dun survive and will die off first.
Since my theory has been proven that people do not appreciatre what u have done for them, it makes no perfect sense for me to help others and be Mr Nice.. Im feeling sick and disgusted and now it is time for me to change and be Mr EVIL. Gone will be the J-san that smiles and help others readily at work when he is ready occupied with his stuff.. I think i should really learn how to protect myself and as zr has said, i shant care about the perceptions of people that do not know me well enuff..
You can go ahead and sae mi work attitude sucks or im just an evil person... I seriousli do not care anymore as the fact that u can sae so means that u dont know mi well enuff for me to care about yr perceptions!!
Am totalli worned out todae....
After which, i proceeded happily to my work and went for a kick off meeting.. But everything was not meant to be as a bombshell hit me.... I was stabbed in the back by the senior of my previous job as he has complained to the manager that i have started late and ended early.. To be honest, i do start late but i alwaes ensure that i work in the necessary work hours and even extra hours ( people who knows mi well enuff know of mi work life balance policy).. Howver, the fact that i was stabbed means that nice guys dun survive and will die off first.
Since my theory has been proven that people do not appreciatre what u have done for them, it makes no perfect sense for me to help others and be Mr Nice.. Im feeling sick and disgusted and now it is time for me to change and be Mr EVIL. Gone will be the J-san that smiles and help others readily at work when he is ready occupied with his stuff.. I think i should really learn how to protect myself and as zr has said, i shant care about the perceptions of people that do not know me well enuff..
You can go ahead and sae mi work attitude sucks or im just an evil person... I seriousli do not care anymore as the fact that u can sae so means that u dont know mi well enuff for me to care about yr perceptions!!
Am totalli worned out todae....
Saturday, March 27, 2010
An update
Its been a while since i last updated my blog as I have been busy with work for the past few months.
After starting work, I have realised that people indeed may not be as truthful to you as it seems.. I have learnt it the rather hard way as some people had began to dislike me for my candidness.. As you can see, I am an avid believer of work life balance and being friends, i thought it would be ok for me to share these sentiments to my run mates.. However, it did not sit well with sum of them and now i hav made "enemies" for myself.. To be honest, I do not really care about these "enemies" as they are not the ones that are the closest to me in the run but it just seems weird to know that people actually dislike you..
In the end, I think that friends that i have made in school days are indeed the true friends as they accept me for who i am ( hopefully, they are not acting PC with me) and i dare say that the few of the uni friends that i have made are indeed my best friends who understand me and can confide in..
On a side note, I went to HK with one of my run mate.. To me, I can consider him as one of those that i am relatively closer to and as such, have sum degree of trust in him.. Despite having misunderstandings, I truely hope that i have not mispalced my trust in him and will like to further develop my friendship with him if posible..
I dont know if my candidness have caused people misery as at certain times i may hav said things that people are not aware of and the truth have shocked them relatively badly.. Maybe i should not hav said those things to him as I hav a feeling that he has since closed up himself in his shell and am unwilling to have a "free" conversation with me and others..
Feeling very perplexed and am sad as i do not wish to lose this friend that i have made because of this incident.. Haix..
After starting work, I have realised that people indeed may not be as truthful to you as it seems.. I have learnt it the rather hard way as some people had began to dislike me for my candidness.. As you can see, I am an avid believer of work life balance and being friends, i thought it would be ok for me to share these sentiments to my run mates.. However, it did not sit well with sum of them and now i hav made "enemies" for myself.. To be honest, I do not really care about these "enemies" as they are not the ones that are the closest to me in the run but it just seems weird to know that people actually dislike you..
In the end, I think that friends that i have made in school days are indeed the true friends as they accept me for who i am ( hopefully, they are not acting PC with me) and i dare say that the few of the uni friends that i have made are indeed my best friends who understand me and can confide in..
On a side note, I went to HK with one of my run mate.. To me, I can consider him as one of those that i am relatively closer to and as such, have sum degree of trust in him.. Despite having misunderstandings, I truely hope that i have not mispalced my trust in him and will like to further develop my friendship with him if posible..
I dont know if my candidness have caused people misery as at certain times i may hav said things that people are not aware of and the truth have shocked them relatively badly.. Maybe i should not hav said those things to him as I hav a feeling that he has since closed up himself in his shell and am unwilling to have a "free" conversation with me and others..
Feeling very perplexed and am sad as i do not wish to lose this friend that i have made because of this incident.. Haix..
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